Yes, I'm still here, cancer and all

I haven't posted in a few weeks and all I can say is, I was on vacation and I'm sorry.
I took two weeks off. It was the time I was supposed to travel to Fiji for a writers retreat (yeah, I know, sounds suspect, but really, it's true) but I canceled the trip because of this unwelcome reappearance of the big C.
My docs said I could go. But that's when they wanted me to do chemo, which consisted of taking a bunch of horse pills. While more convenient, certainly, I don't think my body would have liked them.
I do think my body much prefers what I'm doing now, healthy diet and all. Not that my taste buds always prefer it. And convenience isn't exactly high on the list of Budwig protocol attributes.
But we carry on.
I've kind of recommitted to Budwig in the past couple of days. I haven't made the progress I would have liked, at least from what I can see on my chest of my cancer. I wanted it all gone by now but I know that probably wasn't realistic. Still, I wanted something different. And I don't see it.
Oh, there are changes. The black salve is making a few inroads in some of it but it also keeps popping up elsewhere. Now it's not popping up as fast as it was or anything and not in as many places so I supposes that's good.
But I have to remind myself it's a marathon not a sprint (yeah, yeah, I want it done NOW, whimper, whine, wah, wah, wah.) It took me years to get my body out of balance. It may take more than a few weeks to regain it.
See, that's what always got me about weight loss. When I want it gone I want it gone now. None of this, it took you years to gain the weight, it my take years to get rid of it.
Who made up these rules anyway???? Where do I mail in my complaint???
Unfortunately, the Budwig plan is relatively complex. Oh, it's pretty simple in its components but complex in its execution. I have problems with the timing of things -- drinking the sauerkraut juice one hour before eating the morning flax seed oil and cottage cheese; having vegetable juice at 10 a.m. and 3 p.m.; eating dinner at 6 p.m., etc. I don't get off work until 6 p.m. and it takes longer to make brown rice, my favorite dinner meal.
Yeah, I know, complain, complain. It is your LIFE, after all, Kathy. Suck it up.
I had thought on my vacation I would get some of the timing down. I mean, I didn't have to go to work so I could try to find a rhythm of things. Instead, I slept in most mornings, read in bed, puttered around and didn't do much of nothing. (Except go to Cache Creek and go home with $200 more than I left with. YAY. Although I did wonder as I drove up there if I wanted to waste any karma on gambling when I needed all my luck to fight cancer. But I suppose that's a bit whimsical.)
But I'm back to work now and actually finding the timing of things a bit easier. A bit.
So I'm trying to follow things to the letter now. They say it usually takes at least 12 weeks of following Budwig to the letter to overcome cancer, although it can take longer. So I'm 2 days into my 12 weeks and I haven't cheated once. Although my cheating before was what I would call mini-cheating (eating white rice instead of brown rice in a restaurant, for example.) I'm going to try to eliminate all things I can control and buckle down with it.
I'll let you know the results in 12 weeks.
But I won't wait that long to post another blog. I'm back on schedule now, buckling down on life. And that includes this blog.

Comments

[The Loss]

Welcome back Big C

Let the truth be told I have been laxed in blogging also. Part because of the busyness of family and the other being the one year anniversary of Moms homegoing. Well, you did not go to Fiji but, you rested your body which is a good thing. Now you are buckling down to Budwig. Big C I am thankful that you still have your boxing Gloves on. We do not know how many rounds you will have to go with Budwig and chemo. But, know that I and many others are praying for you and with you. You eluded to this being a Marathon a test of endurance; Sprint you go fast as you can. The big C has not afforded you to go as fast as you can to healing. God knows you are enduring this marathon with patience and bearing up under Budwig and Chemo, you have not fainted or became exhausted or grown weary. The race is not given to the swift but to the one who endures to the end. Be strong and courageous Big C. With Love and Respect someone who Cares.